Just as a heads up, this page will get into topics such as Kinks and Self Expression

So who the hec is Rose?

Well to get started we have to establish

A short History of my Personas

For a long time, I've always wanted to be a great many things. Many of those things aren't possible to be in real life but are core to my sense of self and expression.

Naturally, as an Artist, the first and easiest way to explore this is through my creative works. Whether, Illustration, Writing, Roleplay or other forms of storied exploration; I've always explored what it means to be me.

Over the years this has led to me adopting many different personas online in the constant search for "what is me". Thankfully over time, through different elements sticking, I have become mostly stable on this front. There is a certain part of my persona that feels right and the parts that are still in flux usually don't change too dramatically to be unrecognisable at this point. So I'm happy enough to list them as they are here!

Lastly though, as all of these personas are representations of me, I need to address that I only use them in content that I would personally be okay with. Yes, many of the things I illustrate/write/etc are within very fantastic situations that could never happen in reality, but there is always a level of attachment that whilst I am obviously not my personas, they are still me in any given context.

Just as I wouldn't be keen on being photoshopped into a situation that I wouldn't want to be in, I don't want my personas placed in situations like that either. These aren't an OC in isolation, all of these forms represent who I am, so all actions and depictions towards them are by extension towards me.

I feel like this is a very common and easy-to-understand concept, but I'm addressing it here specifically just to make sure.

I can't be so much of what I represent in my personas in real life (which is a pain point of much sadness) but I can be them in areas of pretend. Whether that is online, in art, in virtual reality or simply in the minds of others; My Personas are me and I am them.

The Meta Persona

Before we get into the specific characterisations, certain elements make up all of my Persona that are consistent to me. These various details appear in one form or another across all my different representations and as such should be addressed here first.

You can consider all these features markers that indicate "Oh hey that's Rose"

• A combination of my lighter colouration + Magenta in a roughly 70/30 split
• A right-side parted fringe for a head of Red/Magenta Hair
• Cyan/Blue Eyes with feminine lashes
• Light Skin and White Fur
• Light Cyan or Lime Green on magical or otherworldly details
• Freckles over the cheeks and nose bridge

You can see these features and how they are represented in my usual forms here on my general reference sheet note: my fairy form has updated since this reference.

Another thing of note is that I'm usually represented as being rather small compared to others I'm interacting with. Being small or a micro as it's often referred to in fandom, is a very core part of my self-expression and validating to who I am.

Now with all that said, let's get into my different forms~!

Rose the Fairy

Let's start with my main Persona and the one you'll find plastered all over this website, Fairy me!

Ever since I was young I was always fascinated with Fairies and fairytales. This is an interest that never really faded and mostly has only grown in intensity over my life.

When it came to representing myself in Art, fairy me was therefore not an unlikely place for me to end up. Though it took a surprisingly long time to get there. Now I could go into a whole rant about my own feelings of self-doubt regarding using a fairy as a representation online, especially within the furry fandom. But I've already done that before and can summarise pretty quickly.

Representing myself as a fairy just makes me happy and feels really comfortable!

It really is as simple as that.

I've had my fairy me in some form or another since all the way back in the early 2010s and have slowly pulled it forward from a side cameo to my main representation over that time.

With all that preamble out of the way though, what are the details for my fairy self?

• Very small, usually averaging around 10cm (although can be any height)
• Having access to whimsical magic, allowing me to explore many fun situations in my creative projects
• Just plain cute and fun!
• Usually wearing a comfy poncho
• Is the main form I use everywhere!

There are other details about this form of mine sure, but they are typically best left to my writing and I've already rambled a bunch here.

The long and short of it is I'm a small little gay fairy that would love to hang out with cute cartoon ladies~

An Update!

The exact look of my fairy form has been updated since I first wrote this page. Whilst there are some cosmetic changes most of what I've written above is still accurate though. Thus this little footnote and an additional picture on the left.

Rose the Furry

It is not an understatement to say that the furry fandom saved my life. As a community, it has been the most important cultural touchstone for me for literal decades now and I've been a fan of anthro characters in media since I was old enough to watch TV. I've met almost all of my closest friends, partners and those I call family through the fandom and whilst it's had some rough spots, overall it is the main place I call home.

Because of this, it's unsurprising then to hear, especially as a furry artist myself, that I have a fursona! ...well uh, I've had many and the ones I have now as all valid and oh gosh wait there's a lot to cover here...

I've had an animal in one form or another since I was a kid watching Digimon and made my own Renamon character. But I didn't have a real fursona until I entered the fandom in my late teens with my original mouse character. This was fine for some time until I went through a period of great upheaval in my personal life that brought into question everything about my own personal expression. Suddenly the mouse didn't fit and we started the journey of a new sona per year for the next near-decade. It was around this time that I played with using my fairy self in some content, but I didn't think to combine that with the furry fandom at this time.

Over the years as I grew as both a person and an artist, I went through many variations of fluffy critters to represent me, from Deer to Skunks, Wolves to Hybrid combinations, each representing a step on my journey. All of them fit just fine at the time when I designed them, but would quickly fall out of feeling right as I underwent more personal growth. But with each new form, I learnt more about what I did and didn't like. What worked for me and what community feelings towards different species were. like gosh do people get weird when you have a skunk sona

Eventually, though I had a breakthrough when it came to personal expression, settling in mid-2018 on the first iteration of my Lion fursona! The biggest change that allowed me to settle on this idea is I went for a completely different design process. Rather than asking the question of "what animal fits me best" I went the route of "what would I look like as clothing" something addressed in the next section of this page. Regardless from this, I reverse-engineered a fursona that would match the colour scheme and design languages I established where me and the rest all fell into place!

Over the next few years, I continued to refine the design, removing things that felt superfluous such as stripes and multiple fur colours, whilst doubling down on elements that I liked such as the magenta hair and freckles. At some point, the character brought back some of my original mouseness creating a mouse-lion hybrid or Liom, which has remained my main fursona to this day.

Over time I've also experimented with other animal representations, but now with the freedom of my meta-design language, it was easy to shapeshift my fursona between species without having them feel like a different character. Through this experimentation, I've represented myself as a pure mouse, a fox, a kitsune, a rabbit, a monkey and probably more I'm forgetting. Referring to my fursona almost as a species mimic, I still consider all of these versions of me, just different forms of the one core concept of a fursona. That said I mostly prefer to use my Monkey self as it's the most fun and engaging to me. Although my mouse-lion self will often make appearances as it is easily the fan favourite of my forms.

An Update!

Since I originally wrote this article the nature of my main fairy persona has changed and now includes a lot of furry elements, in a way that is more 'little creature' than full furry. I really like this representation and drawing it with just a bit more fur is now my prefered way to represent in furry things!

With all that said, this has given me the freedom to feel out what's right for me and even though I've settled as my fairy self being my primary representation, I do now have many ways to have a fluffier expression should I be feeling a little furry at the time~

Rose the Clothing?

So this may be a bit odd to those not familiar with the transformation scene but sometimes I represent myself as sentient clothing!

A huge focus in my creative expression, but also just in my life in general, is being close to others whilst they are just doing their own thing. This very cat-like behaviour of mine expresses itself in a great many ways, from enjoying listening to others doing their own thing in voice calls to wanting tiny versions of me tucked away by larger versions of my friends in art.

The ultimate version of this expression for me personally though is being the clothing of those I care about, literally, something held close to their body, but not in the way at all. Useful and supportive whilst being passive and mundane.

Now yes for me this does have the added benefit of being that close to someone or specific parts of them is rather spicey. The core of this whole expression for me comes from that desire for out-of-the-way closeness.

There are lots of different things that I find really engaging about this expression.

• Not having to worry about the usual having a body issues
• The idea of being soft warm cotton sharing the heat of another
• Being something pretty, adding to anothers expression, but ultimately blending in as part of an outfit
• Stretching to fit someone is almost like a big hug
• The whole thing feels like a meditative closeness
• Being the third party to different activities without the complications of being a third party

Whilst I don't get or draw much art of this sentient attire variant of myself, it's actually the second most validating to me after my fairy self. That said I do have a full style guide and reference for my clothing self! Which you can use to look out for cameos in my art or that of others!

The Cosmic Arcade

So, this is a place and not a persona, but it is still a really important part of my self-expression!

The Cosmic Arcade is a setting I designed for my persona to exist within. Like all good fairies, I needed a domain that felt at home and this video rental meets arcade meets cosy hangout was it.

The Arcade is at its core a place where characters from different media properties (ie. Video games, Movies, Cartoons, Books, etc.) can hang out and mingle. I made the environment to allow an easy shorthand location for my personas to exist within so that I can easily explain them into other creative continuities, either of my own or from other pieces of media.

I'm not going to go too much into detail here as I have already done so in my creative fiction, but just know it's important enough for me that this entire website is themed around it!

On Cartoon Crushes and Sexuality

You may have noticed that a lot of art depicting my personas involves her interacting with certain cartoon ladies. There is a good reason for that, but first, we need to cover some background.

I identify as a Bambi Lesbian, this is a term for someone under the Ace umbrella that is interested in feminine-aligned individuals with a focus on cuddling. This isn't a perfect term to describe me, but it is an accepted term that's close and it's really cute to say.

Personally, my Asexual expression has a strong aversion to sexual acts involving myself directly, which combined with a lack of libido and a very strange relationship with romantic attraction, leads to me being comfortably not interested in sex, at least in practice.

The thing is though, I do experience sexual attraction, I have strong preferences, I find certain things hot and I have a strong fascination with various kinks. In fact, I feel so strongly about certain kinks and things that I find hot, that it makes up the majority of the art I create!

Now I am still very much Ace, but again there is a level of nuance at play here which I'll try to explain.

I am strongly attracted to women, that should be obvious in how I conduct myself online and just in the content I create, but it's a slightly larger spectrum than that. My interest is in feminine-aligned individuals and aesthetics. I have little interest in identities outside of that spectrum when it comes to attractions and I have mild repulsion to identities that trend close to the typically masculine. This doesn't mean I don't like boys, just that the spectrum of boys I am interested in is absolutely minuscule.

This is just one part of the puzzle of my sexuality though, just being a hot girl isn't enough for me to be attracted to you, because my core attraction is to Cartoons.

Now bear with me here, I don't mean I'm exclusively attracted to Lola Bunny (although I am very attracted to her) but rather that the closer what I'm being presented with is to the ideal of a cartoon, the higher the likelihood I experience attraction towards it.

For example, it's no secret that I'm a furry! Folk's fluffy characters in general trend towards more cartoonish and fun looks than you would find in real life. As such it's very common for me to develop a crush on someone's OC or to prefer to think of them as their fursona rather than their irl self, as it's more appealing. This doesn't mean all furries or furry art are attractive to me though, as characters drift towards being too human or too animal and away from the more cartoonish middle ground, I'll start to lose interest. Likewise, if artwork depicting them is hyperrealistic I'll actually start to get turned off by what's in front of me.

At its core to some level, it's the mixture of Zany logic, colourful simplified aesthetics and the highly flexible nature of cartoons that captivated my interests, becoming the key to my heart.

It is also worth noting that whilst the above two factors are most of what goes into my attraction. Kink content is also extremely important to me as it is my preferred way to express these attractions. I eluded before that I have a strong aversion to sexual acts involving myself directly, well the key word here is directly. Within the confines of fantasy, through Art, Roleplay or other creative outlets, I'm actually pretty okay and mostly enthusiastic about sex things. This will sometimes change in regards to content involving genitals depending on how it's presented, but in general, if it's in fantasy sex is pretty okay. The really exciting stuff for me though is kink play and whilst there are a lot of kinks I'm interested in, here is a short list of the highlights:

• Feet and Paws
• Size Difference / Macro-Micro
• Transformation
• and some types of Vore

Now there are obviously going to be a bunch of kinks I'm not interested in, but I don't really want this section to be a preferences guide, more so an overview of my attraction. So suffice it to say, if you show me content of a cute cartoon lady engaging in one of the above interests, I'm probably going to react pretty darn well.

The main thing when it comes to my attraction overall though is that it's fickle. Most days I don't think about it directly, it's not something I go out of my way to seek usually and sometimes I still just won't experience any of it at all, even if every other point here aligns. There are also certain types of content, like hyperrealism, masculinity and abuse that if depicted in an artwork, even if the rest is all things I'll like, will just instantly turn to repulsion to me usually.

It's impossible for me to explain everything, especially as it's always in some level of flux just like my gender, but I hope this helps to cover how it works for me. Basically, the ideal Rose content is something like this birthday present I got from Kernel and the tldr is Cartoon Girl Pretty!

On Gender and Self Expression

Now, this is something that is obviously personal to everyone and I strongly believe that even cis people should explore their own relationship with gender at some point. But I did want to create a little section just to cover it quickly.

I identify as Gender Fae, this is a non-binary gender that in general is associated with some level of gender fluidity and a lack of identifying with masculine traits.

For me personally, whilst I pretty strongly consider myself to be female, I do feel some level of separation from the term and also find I identify with many other expressions that could be aligned with a gender. For example, my clothing self listed above is more of Laundry as a gender and not a girl, referring to me as such is actually pretty darn validating, so yeah that's a part of my gender ideolgy.

However, I have a strong sense of what I don't identify with. I am not a man, dude, bro or any other masculine term. Those terms feel deeply wrong when describing me. On that note, there are more abstract genders that I also don't feel an association with, such as most xenogenders or those who lack gender completely.

I have a strong collection of expressions that are my gender and I move fluidly between them depending on the moment. These include, but may not be limited to:

• Female
• Fairy
• Laundry
• Soft Creature
• Arcade Ambience
• Retro Cartoon
• Fluorescent Materials

Because this can be difficult to explain, especially to people who haven't spent time exploring gender outside of the binary, Gender Fae I find ends up being a good term. As folks typically have an easy time understanding, Not a Dude.

In order to match the complexity of my gender I also go by a few pronouns. For the most part in daily life, I simply go by She and Her as it's really easy and I don't need to explain much (I do have boobs after all). But for those who know me well or those who'd like more words to match the nuance that is me, here is a list of pronouns I vibe with:

• She / Her
• They / Them
• Fae / Fear
• Doe
• Clothes / Cloth
• Soft

The Real Me

As I outlined above, there isn't a huge separation spiritually, emotionally and conceptually between the in-person me and my persona representations.

In person, I'm still a proportionally tall lady with red hair, blue/grey eyes and a bunch of freckles all over, though not as aesthetically placed on my face. So I don't see too much of a seperation, especially from my fairy form, who is basically just a tiny me with wings.

I'll occasionally get or draw artwork that is based on my irl self, like the one in the sidebar of this page, but I struggle to say that's the regular me when again there is so little separation between the two.

I'm just some dork of a person, like most other people out there and I'd much rather folks remember me as the more complex self-expression outlined on this page rather than my disabled human body.

People are complex and capable of such wonderful expressions of self. I'm no exception and believe we should respect how others want to present themselves and hopefully, people will do the same for me in turn.

Why "MewMus" ?

For a long time, I've struggled with my online identity and alias. Wanting for a handle that was short, fun and fit me, I played around with a lot of names for some time

It was when I settled on my Liom (Lion + Mouse hybrid) form that I had the breakthrough that led to this name!

Yes, I mostly represent myself as a Fairy online and in art these days, but the Liom is still near and dear to me. She's also still used in lots of furry art and is a canon form for my persona.

Mewmus is also just a cute and unique handle that I'm very glad to have made my own!